Words that breathe

When I said, “My foot is slipping,”
    your unfailing love, Lord, supported me.
When anxiety was great within me,
    your consolation brought me joy.

When I have been down in the dumps, when I was lost, when I strayed, when trouble was great within me, when I crossed the stormy seas, when fear rode me, when I thought life was done,He breathed life into me, He comforted me and gave me company, He took my burdens and made them his. He loved me and never ever forsake me. And he never will. He gave me words, words of life that satiated me, words of life that told me how to be, words of life that led me to quiet waters and green pastures. He anointed my head with oil.

“When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and when you go through the rivers, they will not overwhelm you. When you walk through the fire, you will not be scorched; the flames will not set you ablaze.… ”

Now this is what the LORD says— He who created you, O Jacob, and He who formed you, O Israel: “Do not fear, for I have redeemed you; I have called you by your name; you are Mine! 

Once upon a time, I thought rules were boring, that it was too much and may be oppressive.
I thought it was unfair in so many ways until I broke them. One or some of them. And I saw, oh I saw, the consequences of those sins, the broken rules, on others lives and not just mine. I saw the heartbreak. And then I saw, oh I saw the beauty of those laws that God so grandly put up. I saw why he despised sin, even the tiniest of them because they wrecked the people he so dearly loved. He warned and yet it happened. Again and again. And then he sent his holy son to my life, the one whose love is Agape love, the one who suffered all for me, to lift me out of the pit I dug and lift me out of the pit he did and put me on his shoulders, shepherd to sheep and rejoiced. I saw how he forgave so much and loved me back asking for nothing in return. His limitless love, his unending grace holding me close and then he held out his hand and walked with me. Every step, every day. And I rejoiced because he took my broken pieces and put them together, and made me more beautiful than I had ever prayed for. He did not just shush my storms. He taught me to smile when the waves almost capsized my boat. My only wish, my dear father, my Lord, my best friend and forever love is to join you at the feast of Abraham sitting near you as Mary and John did and listen to every word you say, to one day love you like you do me, and to live in your will.

Life #1

It’s been a while since I went crazy on a posting spree here. It’s reverted to one post per month here.

And my content has changed. My words are not pre-planned. I put pen to paper and see where it’s going.

Life’s been incredibly difficult but Christ has preserved me in so many ways.

Here’s to Christ on my boat, being the captain and steering the rudder to a safe harbor.

Here’ to Him, who shushes the storms in my life, and brings me calm in the storm.

Here’s to Him who loves me no matter what.

I may not deserve His mercy, His kindness or unending grace. But he’s still looking out for me, loving me more even when I’m unlovable and steering me in the way best cut out for me.

Thank you for every little and every big thing you do for me. For enveloping me in that giant hug when I sink in despair. For saying you love me when I most needed to hear it.

I love you too though it won’t ever measure up to how you love me

Counting my blessings #1

Once upon a time, actually not long ago, precisely eight years ago, I was writing my Bio lab exam for boards and out popped a question that I had never seen before.

I looked up from my paper and all eight of my classmates were turning around, looking at each other in complete oblivion.

Fumbling through my memory leaves this is somewhat it,

Why do you water plants before adding dry manure and not after?

I was clueless.  Then I closed my eyes and prayed, “Lord, you are omniscient and omnipotent and you created all of this, so please tell me the answer”.

Then, out played the answer in my mind like a short movie.

Water being poured into a plant pot with manure, the dry manure absorbing it all up not letting any get to the roots and preventing osmosis. 

This was it.  That was the answer. And I smiled, not because I had a sure two points in my bag, but because the Almighty helped me. I know I did no deserve it, His help, yet He did and that’s how I know what grace is.

He loves you so very much and His grace is there to help you through anything you are going to face simply because of the fact that you are loved by the Most High. Even though you did not do anything to earn it, His love, His grace or His mercy, they come to you when you most need it, even when you don’t ask of it, He knows you and your needs and He wants to make you happy and let you know that He will always, always be there no matter what. All you gotta do is listen for His voice. In the storms of life, look out for that ray of sunshine peeking through the clouds and let him be the calm in your storm.

That day He was the friend who showed me an answer I did not know.  I was all smiles outside post the exam because I was brimming with joy over the love that covered me.

And I am all smiles today because the God who gave Daniel all skillful knowledge and heavenly wisdom is also my God, and even though I am clueless now about the way I should go, He is there to guide me, and I am secure on the palm of his hand.